Here I am, we are happy.  He's a wonderful father and provider.  He's gone above and beyond.  He bought me a new car last summer, he's wanting us to buy a house together this summer, etc.  I've never been with anyone so generous and loving! But alas, I am bothered by the fact that he won't make that ultimate commitment.  He wants to give me everything but 🙄. I compromised an extremely important want/desire of my own, because having a son together was something we had truly been wanting.

I want to be able to put aside the fact that we're still not married (I get badgered about it all the time from family, friends, AND strangers) and just enjoy our relationship, but every time I hear about a newly engaged or married friend, I feel sad, angry, and convinced something about me isn't good enough to warrant becoming a wife.  He expressed a long while ago his parents ugly divorce and them each having been married two and three times after has him uninterested in marriage.  But we're NOT his parents.  My folks' divorce was incredibly bad, but it didn't hinder me from wanting a husband someday.

Are there any articles I can read to open my mind to a life without the possibility of ever getting married?  I'd love to hear your experiences if you're "playing house" without "the paper"....