Someone please tell me im not the only one

Hey my first time doing this and its taking a lot for me to ask this but........i need help im really scared if this is something i cant do anymore. Is there by anymeans a reason why i cry everytime i masturbate i cry.....and i dont mean the teary eye from it being so good i mean straight ugly cry im scared that if i have sex with a guy/girl and might cry again or better yet not being able to masturbate or have sex ever again cause of it.....can you ladies please help me with this im only 19 and im really afraid that it will hinder me to feel pleasure anymore