Dreading labor ; (

This is baby number 4 for me and I am due in two weeks. I'm so terrified of going into labor, I don't want to experience that pain again it is truly the most horrible uncontrollable thing I have ever experienced. I'm not even excited how horrible is that! Purely for the fact that I am going to have to go through that pain again!! If I had the choice of being knocked out and getting a c section I honestly would take it. How do I get myself out of this head space? How do I phyce myself up? Get excited? Calm myself down? How do I get through that pain!? Any tips or advice? 😭😭