I'm 4 months pregnant and so happy. But I come from a long history of struggle with eating disorders and abusive patterns. Even tho the behavior is long gone, the mental part is still there. It's a fight everyday to stay grounded and love myself. I'm really not handling the weight gain part of pregnancy well. I know I need to gain weight to have a healthy pregnancy and I pull a lot of strength from that but I'm paralyzingly insecure when I look in the mirror. Today I woke up and did my hair and make up and when I put on a dress all I see are my arms and legs getting bigger and bigger. I ended up bursting into tears and considering canceling work and later social plans. It's not healthy. I always hear woman say they felt beautiful during pregnancy. I feel like hiding. Anyone Else or am I just completely nuts