Anxiety with first baby

Kelsey
I have anxiety in general and all through my pregnancy. I stopped taking my medicine when I starting trying for our baby. It hasn't been too bad, but still a struggle. I have wanted a baby my whole life and now that I am only a few days away from holding her I can't stop my anxiety from running wild. I just can't believe this is actually happening. Horrible thoughts keep popping in my head. I keep finding myself worrying about something terrible happening to her in labor. I don't even like to write it down because I don't want to put it out there in the universe. I feel guilty for the thoughts but I am just so scared. It all feels too good to be true. It's hard to imagine it will all work out and I will have my baby soon. I wish I could take my medicine and calm down. Has anyone else dealt with this? Is there anything safe for the baby that could help?