So my boyfriend and I last September were not super intimate for a few weeks. It was the fact that I had started a new job and new school and he started his new semester of school and job. We weren't intimate for a few weeks due to super busy schedules and I just honestly didn't want to do anything right? Well basically one day in the car I was on his phone googling something (completely forgot what) then I made sure it showed up in the history due to an error telling me it wasn't a real thing. Then I ended up scrolling to find he had been looking up porn. I genuinely am a strong advocate of Anti-Pornography. I absolutely despise it and know I'm entitled to my own belief. He said he never watched it while we were together. He was horny that night of course and even though he has pictures of me in my swimsuits, bodysuits, he defended himself saying he wanted to see more pictures as in naked pics (I never send nudes or anything of such) he said he missed seeing my fully naked body. He was first looking up these old hentais (he was already touching himself to my pictures but he said he stopped after he read the hentai and was watching the actual porn). In his suggestions came up curvy black women. He said my physique was very similar but as much as he searched. He couldn't find anything like me. He genuinely missed my body. It's strange because I can't seem to get over this. Before anyone tells me I'm being dramatic it's my first relationship and the fact we've been together for years. He said he was planning to tell me as well when we were in our hotel room together where he can ease it in. He honestly felt like shit to the point where our histories were synced up so he knows I can trust him. Any advice how to get past this?