Mad at myself 😡

I normally try not to open this app once it gets close to af time so I won't know what day she is supposed to show up. My logic is that I won't drive myself crazy counting down the days and symptom spotting and hopefully I'll forget and I'll already be late. Well I opened it today to enter BD for last night and of course AF is due tomorrow. Now I'm telling myself I can go ahead and test, it's not too early, it would probably pick up. Ughhhh I can't control my crazy TTC brain. It's spiraling out of control.