HELP?!?! At wit's end with life....

Long story short:

I have one year of college done. I am starting nursing school in August.

I work as a CNA at a nursing home full time.

I am that person who picks up all the extra shifts if there is noone to work. I worked 4 extra weekends and all of the days I could. I did three 12 hours last week and even one 15 hour.

My depression is getting worse (the residents are very rude) and my anxiety is up the wall at work. It is only at work. I attempted suicide at was in the ICU for 15 days last year.

I did go from 40mg to 20mg of my antidepressant, Citalopram in March. And work has really heightened my depression and anxiety. I had suicidal thoughts one day last week very strongly and today again.

I also got Nexplanon inserted one month ago and went off the pill for it so I'm sure that is also messing with my mood.

I think I have to call my doctor or doctor's nurse to put my antidepressant back to 40mg. I tried so hard to keep it down... I was raped and abused from ages 13 to 16. And I just don't want to have to rely on it. The thing is, I don't have money or time for an appointment right now. Could they just increase it over the phone...?

I am starting therapy once every while in September.

I love the overtime and extra money while picking up shifts, but it just isn't healthy for me anymore...

Sigh. Am I going to look back in 10 years and wish I would've just been a 19 year and not have worked so much?

Has anyone else been in this situation. .?

And advice is needed and appreciated. Thank you so much. Xoxo.