No longer interested

I'm no longer interested, it's been that way since her said he dosing want children and he wasn't going to marry me because of our age difference. It's like what do I have to look forward to in this long distance relationship. I'm bored, sex ain't sex, he eat he kitty better than sex. Yet he says he had good 🍆, I beg to differ. Phone sex sucks, been wanting to by a toy he considers it cheating...I need 9inches of 🍆so I can be fully satisfied not 3inches, that's not hitting anything. I'm not being pleased nor stimulated, I want that back. I'm frustrated, I'm everything. I'm ready to go, he called his sister his wife (She lives with him). 4 years at this, the first year was good, year 2 was ok, but 3 and 4, I don't see a point. We don't spend holidays together, he didn't even send me anything for my bday or anything, I spent my bday alone, my ex told me happy bday and a small gift, my own family didn't even do that. Felt miserable when I supposed to be happy, but all in all he's blaming me, but I haven't done anything but support this man with his business and lost money I'll probably never see again, idk