My emotionally abusive relationship

I'm having the most difficult time getting over a break up. For a while I thought I'd be open to trying again in our relationship but I've decided otherwise after reading our conversations. It was clear he had no regard for me. So today I blocked him. I just need advice onhow to get over it. I'm so broken. I can't help but cry when I think about our relationship. I did everything I could to make him happy, he was the love of my life and I saw myself getting married to him. So it's hard walking away but I'm done with him. I just need advice

Background info:we were together for two years. Towards the one year mark I was having some mental break down so I wasn't the nicest to him. We broke up and after we got back together, he punished me for it by breaking up with me 3times. Twice in one month. And blamed me for his behaviour. One time I broke down and told him he's killing me emotionally and he broke up with me. Despite everything I tried to make things work. But I've decided I'm done. And now he wants to fix things telling me he loves me and all😞