Angry and irritable

I just miscarried at 5 wks 3 days and even tho there's nothing could've been done I'm so angry. I hate myself for this and it's causing me problems especially with my marriage bc seems like everything my husband says I just fight about. Everything he says irritates me. I don't wanna do nothing to do with or be around noone not even him. It's gotten bad enough he's crying because he doesn't understand and at this moment all it's doin is making me even worse bc as much as I wanna be sorry for being a bitch to him bc I know it's not his fault, I just really don't care. I don't want loved on, felt sorry for, or spend time together. I just wanna be the wife that's able to give him a child to go along with the child he already has by his ex who didn't even want kids and I feel so worthless, so disgusted with myself, so inadequate. I want so bad to be happy and enjoy spending time with him bc he doesn't deserve to be put thru this but at the same time all I wanna do is scream, punch holes in the walls, and drive 120 mph wide open. And since I don't wanna die or go to jail, my only choice is to lay in my bed and watch TV while dying inside my own emotions 💔