how to deal with rape

But it's been a year and a month since the rape, and I just can't get over it.. any time a guy touches me, tries to have sex with me, cuddles, kisses me or anything.. I have a panic attack.. I'm not on medication at the moment due to being pregnant.. my ex forced me into sex as well, and I ended up pregnant & he left me.. but my doctor does know I have anxiety.. do you guys think I should get in medication after I have my baby which is next month.. I don't know how to deal with it or anything, I just end up crying every single day.. I would've thought I would've by now, but I just can't.. I've tried for months, and I think there is something seriously wrong with me since I can't get over it... I also can't be in a relationship because I feel like they will force me into sex, sexual activity or something like that.. I don't know what to do..