well hubby isn't the problem, so I guess it's me 😥

After 6 months of ttc, while tracking bbt, ovulation strips, herbal teas, vitamins, I was convinced that my husband must just have low speed count because he smokes and drinks Red Bull. I was counting on it honestly because that's as easier fix. But I tested him today and his swimmer count is in perfectly normal range. Which is good, but now I'm wondering if there's something wrong with me. I know I have to try at least a year first but I'm so impatient to become a mom and this has been my fear since before I even started having sex. Because at 16 I worked with a coworker who just found out she would never be able to conceive a child. It got me thinking that I'll spend the next few years being careful and preventing unwanted pregnancies, but what if when I'm married and ready, I find out I can't? And now it seems to be coming true. I'm terrified. We're chefs, we don't make the kind of money to be pouring thousands into invitro or anything like that.