Need Support

So there is a chance I am pregnant. I have thought I was before and always got negative on my pregnancy tests. It just hurts so much when I see that negative sign.. I cry every time for days. I want to have a baby so bad. I'm actually afraid to take the pregnancy test because I'm so afraid it will say negative again.. I don't know if I can handle if it's negative again. I could use some encouragement and support right now :( I know I eventually have to take the test. I'm just waiting a couple more days just to make sure I don't start my period.. Prayers appreciated.