happiness? How to feel better

So from my last post about my boyfriend watching hentai, it just flipped my world around. (Please if you're going to call me insecure and sensitive and blah blah, this is a safe space for me. I do not wish or need to attract any bad energy or hurtful commentary). I  haven't gotten over it. I don't know if I'll ever be able to. I know I can't look at him the same, I love him like CRAZY though. Like madly in love... I don't know what to do to get past it. His excuse of "I watched it to see if I still liked it because I was genuinely curious", it just hurt. I feel like maybe I'm not good enough or my body isn't that great? I don't know, I just need healing souls right now, please if you have something to say that'll hurt me then don't say anything at all. Thank you lovely ladies ❤