Having a hard time

Back story:

Last year on father's day we found out we were expecting. My birthday is whe i started bleeding (july 17th) and by july 23rd is when we lost our baby. So I'm having a super hard time. July marks a year. I have 3 in laws (all married) that are pregnant all right now and will be having their kids all around the same time. All I want to do is cry. All I want is a baby. I want to celebrate father's day and my birthday without feeling depressed....