I'm broken

...I got a medication abortion done yesterday... I went in to PP with my boyfriend minds mostly set on how we couldn't have a child.. through the whole process I thought and bicker ed with myself trying to talk myself out of it. I almost did. Immediately after it was all done and too late I felt regret. My boyfriend and I broke down in tears trying to cope with what we just did... we named him. The baby.. and I can't deal with this pain... idk how to deal with it.