I was sexually abused by my brother as a child and all these memories are haunting me. I want to talk to someone but I don't want to at the same time because whenever I told a so-called "friend" before about it they called me a slut... (They are not my friend anymore) Whenever my parents found out, my mother begged me and my sister not to send her baby boy to prison. We had to lie to CPS whenever we were younger (They were sent on multiple occasions for reasons my parents won't say) The depression is growing and I don't want it to affect my life. I don't want to go to therapy, I just want to know if a journal helps? I just want to get better already. Please help.