Edd of angel baby in a few days.

A bit emotional. Its my 40th birthday on Monday and it's tinged with such sadness as my angel baby expected due date was the day after. This was my first pregnancy and since i had a mmc my cycles have been all off and I've only had one positive opk since. I have got so much heartache 💔 at a time what should be a double celebration for us. I'm hoping we can get out rainbow baby soon but I'll never forget my first angel.