Out yet again.

AF showed up this morning around 7am and yet again I'm crushed and in tears.  I tried not to get my hopes up this month so I wouldn't feel so bad but I guess I did again without knowing it. I don't want to cry in front of DH this time I wish I was stronger than all this.  I really wish it didn't hurt this much. I wish I didn't care as much do I wouldn't be crushed every month. I wish I was stronger.