indecision

Natalia
Halfway thru the two week wait. No signs or symptoms or anything at all. 
And now I'm feeling ok if this doesn't happen for us. I would love one more baby and it's been a rocky road with two miscarriages last year trying to make it happen but my job is now becoming more demanding my kids are getting older and I'm loving that. We're moving into a bigger home in less than a month. I also want a family dog....and now I'm going maybe it'd be ok if things stayed just like this.....Maybe it would be better....
Anyone else feeling indecisive?  Am I being selfish?  My husband is dying for one more.  I feel like I could go either way. But the not is more appealing cuz it doesn't involve little to no sleep for the next five years. And figuring out who can nanny and paying a second mortgage to cover the cost of one.... ugh anxiety!