Family Wants Me To Abort
I'm 19 and found out I was pregnant while I went to go get birth control. A woman came out and told me after a urine test. I cried and was so scared I didn't know what I was going to do. She asked me if I had unprotected sex and I told her no. She looked at me like I was stupid and told me that's impossible. How dumb can you be you can get pregnant from being safe. Shit happens. She said it's not that hard to get birth control. I told her I didn't have a way to go so my aunt brought me here on one of her days off. She was talking so snobby it pissed me off. My parents got back from their five day trip. I told my parents that I am pregnant. Mom flipped her shit and told me my bf owes me $400 for an abortion. She said your not having a baby. Your still a child. You don't have a car, a job, nothing. My dad just cried and cried and said he's worried about me and that I don't have to do this and can just abort. I said it's not that easy, when your pregnant you feel it. You feel everything and only want to protect it. It's hard to get rid of something even if you're not prepared for it. My mom sat down and told me if I had this baby that our president is soon going to take away Medicaid and food stamps and was telling me how it is going to be a lot harder to support the baby. Everything just made me feel terrible. My whole family, and when I say whole family I mean EVERYBODY wants me to abort and I told them I feel pressured to do it. They said they'd have to take care of it and pay for everything. But I told them they didn't have to worry about that that it wasn't their problem. They go calmer about it and told me if I aborted or kept it that they will go with whatever decision I make. They're depressed and won't move. They have been down stares in the living room the same spot for two hours just looking miserable and I know they're scared for me. I understand where they are coming from, I'd hate to break their heart but I know my decision. I am going to keep the baby and move out with my boyfriend. They just have to realize it's my decision and what I have to do. Even though they tried to get me out of being a parent but I know I got to do this. Before anyone comments I got enough tough love from family yesterday. Stuff happens, it's the cold reality. I ended up pregnant, even with protection. I'm here, making a plan. Nobody is going to be fully prepared and sometimes people change and grow up from having a baby. You don't quite understand what my lifestyle and family is like. My parents stopped me from getting a job I wanted, held off birth control appointments for three years (I have no way of going myself), and they wouldn't let me get my license. They didn't want to pay the insurance for me to drive, and they wouldn't let me chose anything for myself like a job. I couldn't even go for a walk while my dad is home. Because he stalked me and picked me up and took me home. I tried moving out at 18. Twice. And they took me back home. So I'm having to be "realistic" and adult by myself the best way I can. I made an appointment myself for getting a license for tomorrow. Im getting my grandma to take me and she is willing to help me with that. Planning for Medicaid and wic. My boyfriend is getting me a car so I have a way to go. So then I can get a job from there. I have neighbors that have baby clothes for whichever gender, they're giving us a baby bed, play pen, gas drops, and once we get enough for what we need we'll go buy some baby clothes when we know the gender and get baby formula and Gerbert for the baby when it's realll close to time for the baby to have it. At least I'm getting everything I can. I was told today by my mom that I am ruining my family so I just feel like I have no support system except my boyfriend. I just need some reassurance that I can do this. I know it's not ever easy to take care of a baby. But I'm going to take responsibility and my parents think I'm dumb for doing so instead of getting an abortion. I'm just tired of feeling like the worst person on earth for accidentally getting pregnant and stepping up to take care of a child. Am I wrong?!
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