Hopes go up then come crashing down

So I never realized how irregular my cycle really is I'm on day43 the average for me is a 32 day cycle I had a regular period febuary 3rd on match first I had a bit of brown discharge when I wiped and checked cervix nothing till the third unless I touch cervix the third thru seventh I spotted a bit every once in awhile never red always brown usually hubby gets friendly aunt flow shows up this time nothing got my hopes up negative test well here I am no positive test day 43 what is going on????anyone else been thru this ???do I keep waiting or just assume it's a light month I almost feel like I'm ovulating again now sorry long post!!