Depression and stress

Okay, so I miscarried twice last year, within four months of each other, and I don't have the money or transportation I need to see a OBGYN. I've been TTC since last September. I already have depression and anxiety, and I feel like it's my fault that we can't get pregnant, and then I lost my job over some bs and so now I have the stress of looking for a job, too, and... I just wish it was easier. I'm so ashamed that I can't get pregnant, and sometimes it's hard to even have the motivation to get out of bed.