I missed my Surge & am over TTC! (rant)

So this was my fertile week and I did an opk Friday around 5.it wasn't positive but pretty close. Was planning on doing the bd Friday night but got into a stupid argument with my SO. Tested Saturday night and I missed my Surge. We didn't bd at all this week. I'm so frustrated. Another month of nothing. I'm at the point of saying eff it. Apparently after waiting until I was ready at 30 was a bad choice and it's just not meant to be,especially after TTC for 15 months. Ugh! 😡