*RANT*

So about 2 and half weeks ago my grandfather had a major stroke. He was put on a ventilator and not expected to last long. They said that we couldn't keep him on it forever and that we should try after a few days to take it out because he was mostly breathing on his own. Well after a week we made the decision to remove the tube to see how he did. They gave him 12 hours. Within an hour of taking the tube out he opened his eyes and was moving one arm. He was slowly improving but sadly made a turn for the worst after 4 days and passed away. That was last Thursday.

Today is my birthday. How am I spending the first 2 hours? Bawling my eyes out because my husband has made no effort this past week to show any sympathy of my grandfather passing. And now on my birthday he is sound asleep while I take care of our 17 month old and I'm 27 weeks pregnant. I haven't slept much due to the stress of everything. It's 2 am, the 17 month old should be asleep but my husband woke him up when he got home then fell asleep and got mad when I got upset.

The only time we've done anything for my birthday is if I payed for a vacation. He hasn't bought me a gift in I don't know how long. I'm so beyond done with everything and feeling worthless and unappreciated. All I asked for on my birthday was to get some sleep and he woke the baby up then went to sleep himself. We have been on a rocky road these past few years and I have told him I am not happy and want a divorce but he throws a huge fit and somehow convinces me to stay.