Obsession.

This may sound crazy but I think I am becoming obsessed with TTC and it's making me SO damn sad to have this weird week of symptoms (which never occur) like BOTH breasts being tender, spotting for two days of VERY Light pink, it disappearing and then heavier bleeding two days later. I'm exhausted with trying Idk what is going on, losing faith bc of almost a year of praying hoping and wishing with no prayer answered. Then damn near everyone around me is getting pregnant meanwhile I'm just here like ⌚️⌚️⌚️ 😔😢 UGH I'm so frustrated and so is my fiancé..... I'm almost desperate for my little love.