Hi

I just need somewhere I can turn without being judged.

A week ago my now ex partner violently assaulted me. This was the worst it had ever been and the first time he struck my face. As I realised he had broken my nose I called 999 and he was arrested less than 10 minutes later. (He had also kicked me repeatedly in every part of my body).

This had been on and off going on throughout our three year relationship. He had problems in his childhood and I desperately tried to get him help. He would never take the help given and for two weeks prior to this happening I had been trying to figure out how to leave our newly purchased house (4 months in) and deal with our puppy.

Do not judge me but we have been trying for a baby for 9 months. I had been on fertility meds due to PCOS. I can only be thankful now that it didn't happen. I know bringing a child into this would have been wrong but I always hoped that it would stop. I can't say that enough. I'd have never let him hurt out child.

I am now living at my parents. He is on bail for ABH and his trial is in 10 days.

I am devastated. My whole life has been turned upside down. My friends and family have been amazing but I'm taking everything they say to heart and I feel so unstable. I am currently on leave from work who have been so understanding but I'm dreading going back.

I cannot explain how I feel. Every part of me hurts, physically and emotionally.

😢