Do you ever just feel grossed out by your vagina?

This is just me speaking personally about myself. I'm an adult, been living with my vagina all my life and I can say whatever the hell i want about it.

I feel like having a vagina is gross sometimes. I mean, just have this hole in my body that I'm steady bleeding out of right now. And it's not just blood, sometimes it's blood mixed with discharge. Sometimes it's clumps and parts of an internal organ that is shedding the dead part of itself. and i just feel absolutely disgusting right now. I woke up with blood going up my backside and it had dried back there and I had to take a shower to get it off and it felt disgusting. I can smell the blood too. I just wish my vagina had an off button. Go away vagina, I don't like you anymore.