Baby shower dilemma has me in tears 😭

Today I decided to take my babyshower invitations to family and friends and from my dads I don't talk to one Aunt because her husband sexually assaulted me when I was 18 and she was the only one who ignored me and took his side I haven't seen her or talked to her in 3 years, today my grandma called me and asked me why I didn't give her an invitation.. i choked up because when I hear her name I think about the situation (yes I'm traumatized) and said I didn't have anymore she replies with she doesn't find that fair and wants her to go.. my cousins call me and ask me for an extra invitation I told them I already gave them one they don't need another one and reply with "oh just in case I lose it" I'm in tears because I don't want her there! But she should already know that because we don't talk and I don't want my baby around her when she's born.. in afraid she'll show up yet I'm also worried about my family not going because I don't want her there..