Adjusting

I'm still adjusting to my boyfriend being able to do whatever he wants and me having to be very cautious and careful. I'm the type of woman to come home from a long day of work and unwind with a glass of wine or brandy lol. This is going to be hard. I'm 4 weeks and 5 days in. Is anyone else struggling with this concept ? I don't drink but it's killing me to know I can't for 3/4 of a year lol.