Wishing I was with someone else

I feel bad for entertaining these thoughts... but I revisit it once in a while especially when my husband & I are not in good terms.

I was taught that marriage is for life & that you should stick together through the ups & downs. But recently I've been thinking about a childhood sweetheart of mine who paid me a visit 5 months before I got married.

We had a wonderful week together of reconnecting & catching up. Nothing physical or sexual. But I believe he truly loves me. He even verbally told me that. A week after I got married & a year after I got married he tried contacting me I ignored his advances. I unfriended him on all social media because I didn't want to keep close ties or any ties with him at all.

Tonight I had another fight with my husband & now I can't help but think what my life would've been like if I married my childhood sweetheart...