What Can I Do To Help?

I tend to keep to myself a lot. I don't really share my secrets with anyone - not even my friends or family. I'm worried that they'll judge me or tell others.. I feel like this ruins my friendships. I barely have any. I know it sounds stupid and you "don't need friends" but it's just nice to know there are people who care about you other than family.

I also have trouble with guys. I love the attention I get when we talk and, sometimes sext, and I genuinely like talking with him but I always end up getting my feelings hurt because I got attached. We're long distance so it makes it worse. :( we started off as just a fling but we slowly got to know each other and I really like him. Like REALLY like him. We use to talk like everyday but now it takes a few days for him to even respond.(we talk through Kik) I think he logs out of his account and it makes me feel like I annoy him.

What do I do?