Second guessing?

Maybe i dont want a baby. I want my boyfriends full attention. but at the same time im lonely right now. And wed take care of it together. And hes gonna have to work without me anyways so why not have someone to occupy me while hes gone. And he wants a baby. And we can take it to the doctor together and everywhere together. But what about when its older? Itll get annoyed that me and daddy are so overly attached to eachother. What do i do???