My friends all think I want to get into a relationship for sex but tbh I just want someone I know will be there for me no matter what, someone I can talk to without being judged or feeling like they're not as for me as I'm for them. It feels like I can't get close with any of my friends, there's like a standard I hold myself to around all of them and I cant just be myself. When I'm with my best friend whenever I'm myself apparently I'm too annoying, I don't find myself annoying. I literally enjoy talking about like anything and listening to anything. Making others happy makes me happy, and I do my best to make sure all my friends are happy and it doesn't feel like they do that for me. Just feels shitty I guess. Just ranting 🤷🏼‍♂️😔