help. I'm struggling horribly...

Justice • son born 12-9-16👦 missed miscarriage 7-12-17 at 10 weeks👼 blighted ovum 2-5-18👼baby girl born 11-25-18👧

I lost my baby at 10 weeks. no heartbeat and I had to have a d&c.; I'm so hurt. I cant stop crying and I can't stop hurting. my husband doesnt really know what to say or do he just wants to move on like nothing happened... i wanted that baby so bad and they're gone just like that. when can I start trying again? I honestly feel like the only thing that will help me feel alright in the slightest is if I conceive again. I just want to scream and cry and im angry at god for taking them away.... and I know i shouldn't be, but I loved that baby so much. help please? did you try right after a d&c; and went on to have a happy healthy pregnancy?