Please help

I just started taking the pill, I'm 20 and I've been having sex for two years but I always only used condoms.

I am now in a serious relationship and I really want to feel him cum inside of me but I'm a bit worried about what it feels like or wether it's awkward or not :(

What was it like for you? Does it feel good? What do you do with the cum? Does it feel too different to condoms?