Teem Problems

Hi. I'm close to thirteen (not real age for privacy purposes) and I have a very bad crush. I feel awful about it and didn't tell anyone. I know lust is a sin but I don't even want to kiss him, much less have sex with him. I only like him as more than a friend. Is it okay to date and hold hands? The farthest I would ever go is hug him. I actually don't want to (date), but if I can't get over it I might as well. My parents would kill me if they found out, as they are strictly Christan. I really want help on how to get over this. Please don't be mean or anything.