I'm giving up!

I've tried unsuccessfully for over three years to have a baby. It's time to let it go and put my energy toward other things. I'm tired of the BFN's and false hope. I guess I have just been kidding myself. Besides, I can't even take care of my self let alone a baby, right? I'm letting all the desires for a baby to go because all the hurt and pain has just been too much. I'm tired of pretending to be happy for others. I'm sick of it all! I just need it to end. The stress has taken me to the ER! I don't know what steps to take now... I'll have to figure it out..😢😢