Dear self, I'm proud of the woman you've become. With the loss of your aunt and the loss of your grandpa. God has challenged you and you have still kept going. From accepting Christ into your heart, to going to the mental hospital you are still strong. You have dealt with depression, anxiety, and self harming. It will be a year clean from cutting August 31st. It's hard when your brother has been in and out of jail for drugs. I wanted to try to maintain a relationship with you. But I'm not sure if I can trust you. It's also hard because your sister has been struggling addiction, she is going to rehab again. I hope that she can stay clean and that rehab helps. I also hope that my brother can maintain a relationship with me and that he can also stay clean. It's hard but with the support of your family and the support of friends you can do it! I love you self! Stay strong!