Hi girls,

I don't really know how to start this but here goes... Everyone keeps telling me about this magical bond you feel when you find out your pregnant. This magical bond when you see the baby for the first time. When you hear the heart beat for the first time. Well I have no idea what you are talking about!! All I feel is worried and unattached. I feel like I'm never going to bond with this baby. Even when I feel the little kicks inside of me I don't really feel "that bond" and when I try to tell people how I'm feeling I just get told I'm being stupid and to suck it up. This pregnancy was planned. It's also my first so every step is new to me and don't have much in the way of support. My partner said he would be more excited after the 12 weeks was up... well nope doesn't feel that way to me. My mother isn't exactly what you would the maternal type. Doesn't want to be there for the birth even. So I'm sure someone will understand were I'm coming from. Sorry for the long post just needing some advise. I know there's going to be people that hate. But you know what join the club of pretty much everyone I know... thanks for taking the time to read ❤️😔🙁❤️