Boyfriend came back..

Okay a couple weeks ago i posted about my boyfriend leaving and going to military school for 5 months. Well since hes been gone I've started journaling my daily life and trying to be more positive but every now and then i have one of those days where i feel soo depressed. Well yesterday was one of those days and i basically tried to sleep my life away by sleeping all day lol. And while i was sleep my boyfriend came back😭😭😭 he was only back home for a couple of hours and i missed it💔. He even texted me but by time i woke up he was already back at school. I FEEL LIKE STRAIGHT TRASH🚮 i can not believe i3 missed my one chance to tell him i love him. I just got over feeling depressed everyday and this shit happens. 💔 and its so hard because i dont really have no one i can really rant to so im telling you guys. 😩😩 thanks for listening comment if youd like to be my friend or things i could do to not feel like a total ass.