11 DPO and afraid to test again 😩


Like my title says I am 11dpo and I have no real life altering symptoms. As per my <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">period tracker</a> I should have started my period yesterday but for me it will never be accurate. I have PCOS and therefore I do not have a regular menstrual cycle. I tested on 6dpo (I know early) and got a BFN! I tested again on Monday and got a negative. It feels like a punch in the stomach every time you get a negative. At this point I am afraid to test because of the disappointment on my husbands face. He tries not to show it and tells me it will happen, we are young (26) and god will bless us when he feels it is right. This is my 2nd cycle on clomid, I know many women have gone through far more cycles, but the fear to continue is real! I have felt very painful cramps in this tww and my breast are very tender and heavy feeling. Other than that everything else is pretty much normal. Suggestions anyone 😩😫