Why I hate my body.....

Life has been crazy and I forgot to track the beginning of my fertile window with OPKs. I started around the day of (supposed) ovulation and they were negative. Today coffee and the smell of cat food made me vomit, I have weird pains and a splitting headache. I thought maybe I was ovulating late but opk isn't close to positive.

I gave up hoping and trying for my rainbow and was planning on going to the Doctor next week to go back on BC (im just that done). Now I'm wondering what if and getting my hopes up. I want to buy hpt's, cry, and bang my head against a wall all at the same time. Ughhhhh!!!