All the emotions!

Hi everyone! I did my FET on July 17 and will find out on the 26th! I'm on an emotional roller coaster like I'm sure we all are. This is my first IVF cycle, I've done 3 previous IUIs, the first resulted in a pregnancy with twins but that ended tragically. They were born prematurely at 24 weeks and didn't survive more than a few days. My heart aches for them but we still want a family so we're doing IVF. Now I want so badly to be pregnant again, but terrified of all the things I know now can go wrong during those 9 long months. I'm generally positive that we will end up with a child someday but I don't know if I can take much more disappointment or loss. I really hope I get a positive beta, but I'm afraid to test early. Ahhhhh! Going a little crazy over here! 😳 and I'm reading way too much into every twinge and cramp.