Natural hair girls should know what I'm talking about.

Background: I'm 7 months post-relaxer and I guess decided to transition a month ago or less. I was natural until 2008 and had a LOT of hair that was/is most likely 4C, then I started getting relaxers in 2008. My hair from that point until end of 2016 was bra strap length, then in between shoulder and armpit length due to loss of hair from breakage and general not knowing how to care for my hair. I had no idea that relaxed hair still needs as much care as natural hair does.

Now, I'm in a current limbo of deciding if I should get another relaxer (even though I lost some inches from taking out my first ever box braids I had in for 2 months, but to be fair I had no idea how to care for my hair while still in braids ☹️), big chop at this point and start again, or shave my head to a super short cut. I don't know why this is such a big struggle for me. I like change, but I'm scared of change at the same time...is that normal? It probably feels dumb that I'm crying over this but I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like my hair has gone to shit and maybe a fresh new start is what I need, but idk ? Some advice would help a lot 😢