Previous Miscarriage has Destroyed Me

Lee

Ladies, I previously had a missed miscarriage at 11w5d, baby measured at 10w4d. This pregnancy was a total shock, wasnt trying - actively trying NOT to fall pregnant... WHOPS!!! Now I'm 9w5d, SO stressed at the prospect of all the milestones coming up... my babys death week, miscarriage week, due date was 12 August... I can't deal 😣😥 I just have to surest feeling that it's going to happen again. I feel sick about it. I also feel lile this baby is in no way a substitute for my first baby that I lost. does anyone else feel like that? I miss my first born so much... this second pregnancy is just plagued with fear and stress that wasn't known the first time around.