I don't think he's interested in me anymore, after two years. I'm sitting here in my room, alone...sad. My boyfriend has gone to work. I want to have sex more often than he does, apparently. I make the first move more often than he does. he claims that he's just not feeling it. I'm not going to lie, I have snooped on his laptop/phone before. I've seen porn and whatnot in his history. he'll spend a whole day at home on a day off and I know from his history that he watches multiple videos (I'm assuming masturbating to them) throughout the day. Also visits Craigslist personal ads! there's no visible out going emails to these ads rn, but I'm skeptical. yesterday we had the house to our selves all day, not a single move was made towards me (I don't always want to make the first move.) my feelings are hurt, I just want him to want me. I know we must have similar sex drives if he wants to masturbate so often....why doesn't he want it with me!!! is it too easy? too boring? I'm willing to experiment with nearly anything!

fuck this is so frustrating. I just needed to write it down and get it out somewhere.

when you're in love and in a long term relationship, do things always get this complicated sex wise? I almost feel like he's gonna break up with me. I can't get him to fucking communicate.