I'm awful right?!

I do NOT regret my marriage. I never will! I love my husband so very much! But I do regret not exploring my other feelings toward females. I am now married and can never act upon those feelings. But I also just found out that the woman I have had feelings for since forever is also Bisexual. I wish I would have been brave enough to tell her and maybe have given us a chance. I'm an awful person aren't I?

Guys she is just so perfect! She is beautiful, smart, funny, level headed, down to earth, fun, dedicated, determined, she has the best sense of humor! I just want to tell her how I feel about her. I wish I could just kiss her once. My husband said if I ever do anything with a female he has to be involved, which I understand. I know you should never do it with someone you know and not another Bi person. I don't want to take a chance at harming my marriage. But I am just conflicted.