UPDATE:SO had a Porn addiction relapse 😕

Sorry it's not baby related but I really can't vent to anyone, as it's too personal. I personally have never taken issue with porn, I've watched it myself and with Ex's ex's in the past. As with anything moderation is key. I found out when we were about 4-5 months pregnant that my SO had a porn addiction. By addiction I mean, he's spent hours watching porn, can't masterbate without it, all social media is geared towards half naked girls, he's sneaky about it, and lastly when it comes to true intimacy he cannot get and keep an erection, and in order to maintain a erection he has to think about porn. His mind has been reprogrammed and has been desensitized to actual intimacy. So this isn't "Oh I caught by BF watching porn, our life is over" rant, this is a serious addiction that does effect our day to day life. I know I shouldn't take it personal but it's so hard not to 🙁 it just makes me sick to know that he's spending so much time looking at other women preforming sexual acts, but I can be standing in front of him naked and he can't even get it up. After lying multiple times he hadn't relapsesd he finally admitted he's been watching porn and excessively masterbating. Our sex life has been slow since the baby, breastfeeding has really killed my libido and he understands that and never gives me shit about it. But instead gave himself the green light to start watching porn again. At first here and there, and now daily, and multiple times a day. He will disappear to the bathroom for 30 mins at a time, taking the little free time he has away from our son and myself. His downtime at work is spent on things like Instagram looking at half naked women. He uses porn and masterbation as a stress reliever, just as a alcoholic would abuse alcohol. He has tried to quit several times, but always relapses. I'm just really hurt and sad. It makes me sick to think of his mind being so perverse. He's crying and apologizing, has deleted all social media, promises this time will be different.....I just don't know what to do. I feel betrayed that he lied to me, but my gut know he was back at it again so I confronted him, after quite a bit of probing he admitted it. 😢 Thank you for reading and allowing me to vent.